Fuck-you Friday blahs

Ah Fridays!

I slept in a little bit this morning ...actually, I can't recall "sleeping in" like this without extreme overindulgence with alcohol or final exams being involved in quite some time! Sometimes I think my little mutt would let me stay in bed all day long if he didn't haven't to go do his business at some point. It happened to be nearly eleven before nature finally called him though, and I finally dragged my ass up and out.

So reports of a Boris Karloff-ish looking zombie roaming my neighborhood with a little dog are not to be believed; it was just me.

I'm something of a fiend for my morning coffee, but on days like this I don't even bother with it. The landscapers are hard at work outside since the rain appears to have let up a bit, and Zeke seems somewhat satiated at least.

I finally got around to getting that silly 11 grand moved out of my checking account for the time being this morning. I fucking HATE having that much money staring me in the face every time I open my bank account ...especially knowing I can't touch a penny of it, so at least I moved it somewhere that I can at least get the benefit of the interest until my LTD insurance wises up and asks for it. Under ordinary circumstances, I might have actually called THEM about it ...but given the crack team of attorneys and their (Aetna's) outstanding customer care with me ...I just don't feel much of a sense of graciousness where they are concerned for some odd reason.

Every time I try to blog about the whole situation, I just get too worked up. I'll leave it alone until I feel a bit better about it I guess. I was talking to my two brother's about it last night, and telling them how the amount of money sitting there just seemed to be screaming "FUCK YOU" at me the whole time. When I was talking to Seb about it yesterday, it occurred to me that SOME of that money may actually be mine ...perhaps as much as a third of it even. I think I'll just bury my head in the sand for a while though, collect a bit of interest, and deal with it when the time comes.

I admit that it's a bit weird that my attorneys never notified me of my "victory" in the case. It's enough to make me wonder if they even KNOW, or if I just slipped through a crack some way or another (entirely likely); I heard about it via the judge, then whammo ...huge paycheck hits the bank without so much as a call or letter asking what to do with it. Hell, I don't even know how they arrived at the amount; it should have been a bit higher unless the attorney fee's were deducted from it ...which also seems unlikely since the attorneys are SUPPOSED to be paid for by the LTD company rather than pro-bono. I guess I should put a call into Social Security, but I just don't feel like messing with them this week/rest-of-the-month.

It's a nice thought if it were mine; it's more than enough to have me totally debt-free, which is a very nice thought indeed!

One can dream.

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